Today was Day 45.
But the start of today's blog involves yesterday's post-blog activities. I thought I was done for the day after the consultant psychiatrist had made me run through everything again. I even managed to resist posting the blog he wound me up into writing yesterday. It is currently on hold until next Wednesday.
I was settled in front of the TV to watch the cycling and athletics and made the mistake of checking my facebook messages. Future note to self. Don't even try and discuss things with people whose starting place is based on lies, deceit and misinformation from the other side.
I was so wound up by bed time that I couldn't sleep again. I think I maybe did get a couple of hours about 3am but I was back awake before 5. I spent about an hour getting myself wound up again and eventually had to get up and do something about it.
That brings us to Day 45 proper.
Today at work was a struggle. I had a few meetings and managed to get through them on auto-pilot. It is still amazing me how much of my job I can get through with my brain almost completely switched off. I was asked at least one question today that I wasn't even listening to as my mind wandered off but I answered and judging by the reactions around me I answered correctly. I suspect my deputy is covering a lot of things that should be coming to me. I will have to remember that when it comes to annual reviews and pay rises.
I am missing big chunks from my memory again today. I noticed on the drive home that I was missing short term blocks of driving but still no sign of a crash and no tooting of horns so the autopilot for driving to and from work must still be working fine.
The lack of sleep has left me exhausted and with a headache again so I am going to cut this short and go to bed. Hopefully this time I can get to sleep before I get wound up again.
Day 45 - Autopiloted.
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