Day 22

Today was Day 22.

Today was the best day so far, although google losing my first attempt at this post and the start of a headache are taking some of the edge off it.

The headache is due to me dragging myself out of bed when I woke up this morning and taking my medication rather than lying there for hours. While that was a good idea at the time, and has helped through the day, it has meant that the effects of being unmedicated through the night have come early. I suspect the fight to get out of bed tomorrow morning could be a serious challenge.

But that is for the Day 23 blog.

I had written a big explanation of today's race but I am going to strip that down to good swim, bad bike in the rain and wind, decent run. I had also written about how people around me behaving more normally towards me had helped me feel more normal. But Google lost it and the thumping behind my eyes is getting too much for me to write anything clever today.

I had a lot of time to think on the bike and being out in the fresh air and doing some exercise had my brain turning over in a different way to sitting at home and thinking. I have a plan for going forward. This is a good thing, it is one of the top recommendations from many of the mental health website. Make a plan and execute it. Unfortunately, my plan is reliant on many other people so the execution phase could be more complex. This does leave my planning open to a significant risk of failure, potentially creating a relapse of my condition. I intend to discuss my intentions tomorrow with the psychiatrist and (assuming she agrees that it is a good step forward) on Tuesday with the first of the many people that will be required to participate in it.

Today was a very good day (despite the headache).