Today was Day 31.
So the new drugs work. At least as far as putting me to sleep goes. I was already drifting when I blogged last night (in case that wasn't obvious). I crashed out at 11pm and didn't wake up till after 9. This was my first full night's sleep in a month. I woke up feeling almost normal. It took a couple of minutes to realise that this was massively drug induced.
With no reason to get out of bed I stayed there till after 11. When I did get up I just crashed out again on the sofa in my pyjamas. I managed to drag myself into the shower and got myself dressed at about 1 in the afternoon. I made a sandwich for lunch, but apart from that the whole day has involved sitting here on the sofa channel surfing the dross of daytime TV.
My mum came to visit me this afternoon. This was also the first time in a month. She only stayed about 15 minutes. I don't think she was able to deal with the state I was in and rather than risk making it worse she just left me to it.
The new drugs are having some other fairly major effects. They have definitely shifted my mood positively. They have also slowed me down, a LOT. I tried to change the battery in the door bell today and that 2 minute job took me 10 minutes before I eventually gave up on it. I can't focus on anything still and I haven't even tried going outside.
I have deactivated my Facebook account for a while. It wasn't helping and anyone who I might want to talk to, can contact me directly. A couple of people have already texted about it.
I have to go back to the psychiatrist again tomorrow.
Day 31 - boring, but done.
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