Day 47 - Exhausted.

Today was Day 47.

Third day in a row that I have slept less than 4 hours. The cumulative effect of that is seriously affecting my ability to concentrate now. I only ate about half my lunch and I only just managed to keep that down.

Even though it is going to wreck any sort of sleep pattern I am trying to build up I am going for a nap now. Might come back and finish this later.


Updated-
Crashed out for an hour. I now have a headache instead of just pure exhaustion but at least I can read more than one line at a time without forgetting what the previous line was about.

Today was another bad day at work. I have been awake since 4am again so I was too exhausted to do anything useful.

I have been avoiding the scales this week. The agreement with the psychiatrist that I would let them admit me if I drop below 67kg is nagging at me. I have convinced myself that if I don't officially break the barrier then I am not breaking my agreement. That gives me till Monday again before I get forced to step on the scales. I really should check myself so that I can act over the weekend if I have to. Even with the lack of exercise the veins on my arms suggest I am still losing weight.

Day 47 - Exhausting.